IT WASN’T ALWAYS THIS WAY

For many years, mostly during my two boys’ formative years, I woke up each day with a feeling of dread. I felt angry, sad, overwhelmed, and stuck. My negative self-talk was all consuming. Believing the voice of my inner critic telling me nothing I do is good enough. 

After dropping off my boys, the loves of my life, off to school I would cry all the way to my office. At home each night, I waited for the next shoe to drop – a feeling of anxiety and stress over what was to come.  I didn’t know how to change and then one day one of my boys called me “mean mom”.  I lost my breath; the world began to spin – I had to change. Not just for me but for sake of my sons. 

I needed to get out of my marriage, sell my mortgage company that was co-owned with the husband, the husband who promised to be my partner in the business and never showed up.   

It took blowing my world apart, not knowing if I was making the right decision just knowing I had to change.  In the beginning of making this change I began to spend more time on me, self-reflecting, identifying specifically where the tight feeling in my chest was from.   

I started going back to the gym with a girlfriend as accountability partners, eventually we hired a trainer.  I spent as much time alone with my kids as possible knowing I had to protect them from my husbands anger. 

I stayed, for more years than I should have, until my youngest was 18 and out of school. This way he could make his own decisions about where he wanted to spend his time. 

We sold the business, it was my self-identity, which terrified me and gutted me.  Let go of our custom built million-dollar home and moved into a crummy rental a quarter of the size. I traded my luxurious Mercedes in for a used Ford.  It felt so good to finally be free from all that debt.  

I was alone and finally able to breathe. I was able to open up, take care of myself and begin on the journey to change the negative self-talk and become a healthy independent woman. 

Today I have incredible energy, I wake up early each morning excited for the day.  Dancing in the kitchen on my way out the door is common. I am grateful, humble and happy.   

My time is precious and only spent with those who uplift me and doing activities that enhance my life not bring it down. When something feels heavy, I walk away, when something feels light I am all in! 

I love my business and helping people realize their dreams. I really do love my life. My heart is full and growing.   

It’s my birthday, I am 60 today and excited to live the best life possible from this day forward.  It pains me to know other women feel the same dread, believing as I did the inner critic with all its limiting and self-deprecating belief and see that it is possible to change. And this is the inspiration behind the creation of Suddenly60. 

Suddely60’s mission is to develop a community of women, provide resources and tools, inspiring interviews with badass women to help us all learn and grow to be happy and feel fulfilled.  

I’m inviting you to join me on this journey, share your thoughts, dreams and transformational stories. 

I would love to know which topics you would like to hear more about that would help us all thrive and grow in this enlightened age of limitless possibilities.  We all need something to be excited about. Let find that together.  

Welcome to Suddenly 60 with Suzanne, I cant wait to explore all the possibilities with you.